I feel like I am going insane. Every time I open Tumblr I read so many horrible things and it makes me feel awful. I am getting so stressed and miserable about things I don’t even fully understand and I am sick of reading so many emotional, all-caps rants by people to try and figure out what’s going on.
I know it’s not the right thing to do, but right now I just need to ignore it all and try to calm down. Tumblr is slowly convincing me this world is an absolutely terrible place and it’s making me lose the motivation to bother getting up every day.
I know how important some of the issues on here are, and how trivial most of what I reblog is, but I come here to unwind. That is the reason I made an account, to lose myself in my interests with like minded people. It has become a place where everything you post can potentially come back to slap you in the face and I find myself constantly worrying about whether what I post or reblog will upset people.
People often talk about what a great place Tumblr is, saying that everyone is welcome and you can be yourself, but you get shot down just as often for being yourself here as you do anywhere else. There is so much hypocrisy. Everyone is so opinionated and judgemental. I have seen posts preaching peaceful messages where people have reblogged adding comments stating that you don’t belong here if you disagree. I just can’t deal with it all any more.
This website is not the fun and interesting place it used to be.
I’m going to log out now and hopefully not log back in for a long time. If anyone wants to contact me I’ll still be on Twitter: https://twitter.com/violetthebat
When an alley cat keeps coming around, stop feeding it milk - it will go away…take this and apply it to people in your life that suck attention. Unfollow them, block them. Stop talking about them and they vanish…There is nothing real about them.
“If this gets 10k notes by tomorrow, I won’t kill myself” “I know it won’t, but if this gets 5k notes by the 9th, I will stop cutting myself.”
There isn’t a single decent minded human being out there who wants you to kill yourself or continue to harm yourself or whatever your post is being made for. We all want you to be safe and happy. The problem with this approach is that notes are not going to fix you. Notes are not going to take the pain away or fix your problems or make you happy or change your thoughts. For things to get better, you need to tackle the causes and work at it. Notes might make you feel better for a little while, but it doesn’t change the fact that your problems are still there.
Ask for help, not notes. Reach out. Talk to someone. Ask for advice. Call a suicide hotline. Not only will it help you feel better, but you will be improving yourself at the same time. (:
There is always someone out there who cares about you, you don’t need notes to see that. Stay strong. Things get better(: I love you, and my ask box is always open! <33